Janelle Brown is  JanelleBrownSharesHeartbreakingMessagetoSonGarrisonMonthsAfterHisDeath sharing her grief with her fans.

Six months after the tragic death of her and ex Kody Brown’s son Garrison Brown, the Sister Wives star marked the occasion by sharing a message to her late son. 

“6 months ago today you went away,” the mother of six began her Sept. 5 Instagram post, sharing a sweet photo of Garrison hugging and kissing her. “You come up in my photo memories almost every day. Sometimes it doesn’t seem like you’re gone. And then I remember I won’t be getting a call or text from you and it all comes rushing back.”

“I know you fought hard but in the end you just couldn’t stay,” Janelle added to her son. “I love you so much and will see you again when my journey is done.”

Janelle and Kody’s daughter Madison Brush also marked the occasion with her own tribute to her late brother.

“Not a day goes by that I don’t think about him,” Madison, who is married to Caleb Brush, captioned photos of Garrison playing with her youngest daughter Josephine, 18 months. “In some ways, it feels like he crosses my mind even more now, which might be a sad truth for many who’ve lost someone in this way.”

Noting that followers who have experienced similar situations have reached out to her in the wake of Garrison’s death, sharing the shock the Brown family—which also includes Kody’s 18 kids with ex-wives Janelle, Christine Brown, Meri Brown and wife Robyn Brown—experienced.

“My brother, Garrison, had his struggles, but this was not something any of us saw any signs for,” Madison continued. “We were truly blindsided. We talked regularly, and my mom’s kids have always been close-knit, even as life changed around us. Garrison was sarcastic and witty, and in moments of seriousness, he seemed almost uncomfortable with it—like it was hard for him to be vulnerable.”

And she also reflected on the ebbs and flows that come with grief.

“What I do know is that the hurt doesn’t go away. It just transfers,” she concluded. “And sometimes, it feels amplified.”

Amidst their grief, the divided family are gearing up for season 19 of Sister Wives to premiere on Sept. 15. Though the show is pre-taped and will be airing footage from mid-2023, a release for the new season noted that Garrison’s death will be featured.

“Through the heartbreaking pain,” the network shares, “the family navigates this incredible tragedy and comes together to mourn and celebrate his life.” 

If you or someone you know needs help, call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. You can also call the network, previously known as the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, at 800-273-8255, text HOME to 741741 or visit SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources for additional resources.